sorry xanga.. i tried.. but it turns out you are just as gay as everyone thought you were.. hit me up on dat myspacceee.. yuh.

<3keri

oook...

soo.. ive noticed. life can steadily be going in one direction.. and the next day.. everything has been completely turned upside down.. not necessarily in a bad way.. (who knows the outcome).. but.. its different.. and it takes time getting used to.. sad.. but.. inevitable.. and.. im hard headed.. and i tend to block things out when they bother me.. and i think i needa work on it.. cause ive just erased whole areas of my life.. i dunno.. just a little thought or goal or something..

well.. today.. was a pretty good day..

lip sync.. we got second.. yay. in the end.. i think it was kinda worth.. the.. lets say.. "hassle" lol .. it was fun.

school.. i dont know why... but im just.. not in the mood for work.. at all.. grades are a's but.. i just kinda dont wanna do anything.. heh.. yeaaa..

homecoming.. its tomorrow.. weird.. came fast.. should be fun.

i could like.. sleep forever right now.

ive been thinking about college.. school.. and what i want to do lately.. im kinda.. lost.. ive been wanting the same thing for forever.. but now im not so sure.. i dunno.. so yea.. i need a job. reeeaalllyyy badly.. down to my last dollars.. know of anywhere thats hiring?

things are weird.. cant really explain.. kinda feel empty.. i guess ive just realized alot all at once.. hmm.. im tired.. i need to sleep.. this weekend will need my energy.. today was a pretty day..

boring entry. oh well.

<3 keri

someday..

ill have my first plane ride..

i hope i will see my baby brother graduate with honors..

i want to be a mom..

id like to finish writing a book.. and perhaps, have it published..

i want to go to college.. and leave with all the education i ever wanted.. enough to work in the profession i want to work in..

i will travel the world..

i will own a house.. white.. old.. and big..

id like to go to my highschool reunion.. and see how everyone turned out..

i want to meet someone.. who will challenge me.. and who can talk to me about anything.. someone open to learn... and someone who can teach me.

i want to go far from here.. long enough so when i come back to visit.. i will enjoy myself..

i will wake up to breakfast in bed.

i wont have to ask.

i will look back on everything.. and i will be so thankful it happened like it did.

id like to get married.. to one person.. and stay with that person..

i want to catch a cab..

id like to sleep in a warm cabin.. on a snowy mountain..

i will go to disney world.

i hope to realize what is really important..

i want to stay in a poverty stricken country and help.. somehow.. help..

id like to go to an outdoor concert.. in the rain..

soon.. id like to visit the beach again..

i will hold a hand.. and it will fit perfectly..

i want to retire..

id like to snowboard.. forreal snowboard..

i hope to call a friend when im older.. a friend ive had for years..

i want to live by water.. lake.. ocean..

id like to have a godchild..

id like to learn how to play guitar..

i hope to help someone..

id like to have some sort of say so..

i want to buy a cd.. and work myself up to having a cd collection..

i want to see india.. and understand the cultures..

i will do something unbelievable.

i will live on my own.. and i will see how hard it is.. but i will love it..

i want to live in new york.. or london.. for a while..

i want to see a movie that scares me..

id like to be surprised.. a good surprise..

ill keep track of how much my kids will grow.. ill draw their heights on a door..

id like to have a professional massage.

i might try to get on real world.. haha.. if its still exists..

id love to be in love again..

i could move up to being vegan..

i hope to see a broadway show..

i want to find complete happiness..

i will find complete happiness.

all in due time.. i hope.

<3 keri

regret - n : sadness associated with some wrong done or some disappointment, a sense of loss and longing for someone or something gone, a feeling of disappointment or distress about something that one wishes could be different

learn - v : acquire or gain knowledge or skills, to gain knowledge, comprehension, or mastery of through experience or study

love - n : a strong positive emotion of regard and affection, a deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness

fate -n : an event (or a course of events) that will inevitably happen in the future, the supposed force, principle, or power that predetermines events. 

contentment - n : happiness with one's situation in life

some things to overcome.. and some to work for.. even some to give more to.. and to eventually understand.. its gonna be ok. everything will fall into place.

<3 keri

happy new year : )

well now that its a new year.. i dont feel very different..

i went to memphis.. i loved it.. i got to see everyone.. i miss them so much.. it was good.. i saw harry potter.. i got to spend time with my little brother.. went shopping.. just.. had an overall good time.. im ready for the new year.

im not ready for school.

but it will come anyway..

pictures..

my little brother awsten.. i love this little guy so very much.. when i told him i brought my camera he got so excited.. he begged me to take "silly" pictures.. it was so funny.. here's silly picture # 1

silly picture # 2

silly picture # 3

he's finally similing : )

me and darling savannah

pepper and i.. we were attempting to count down .. but then when it was my turn to make the six.. i realized i couldnt hold it up while holding the camera with my other hand.. we failed.

vannie and the girlies.. vannie is a little preoccupied.. but thats ok.

me savannah n tim

this dog is.. massive. i love big dogs.. i want one.

once again.. happy new year.. lets make this best of this one, shall we?

i'll see most of you tommorow..

<3 keri